Merry Christmas!

I'm usually a big old scrooge around the holidays (well, I still am) but I'm in the holiday spirit moreso than I have been holidays past. It seems like bad things always happen around the holidays and it can really put a damper on things. I try not to let that get to me though, and try to remain in the spirit of Christmas by remembering its true meaning.

To me, Christmas is about celebrating the birth of our lord and savior (although its unclear as to when he was really born). It's also about spending time with friends and family. This is the time of year when you see and talk to people you may not have heard from in eons. Another huge part of the holidays is the food! Christmas gives you an excuse to inhale any and everything within sight.

And lets be honest...who doesn't love the fact that you get time off work, or if you don't, you get that good holiday pay? That's the best. I don't get gifts as much as I used to, but the fact that I get to sleep in and watch DVDs all day while stuffing my face makes me all warm and fuzzy inside. I feel lucky too because its such a beautiful day out. People in other parts of the US are covered in snow and freezing their asses off, while where I am its warm enough to go outside with no jacket on. If it didn't get dark at 4:30 I would go to the beach. Damn, I can't wait until Daylight Savings Time ends.

I feel really blessed, and I have a lot to be thankful for. I'm not exactly where I want to be right now, but things could be a lot worse. Relatively, I'm doing alright.

Stop Texting Me! Just Call!

Technology is cool. I consider myself to be pretty tech savvy. I love technology just as much as any generation Y-er. I like spending an unhealthy amount of time on the internet, electronic gadgets, camera phones, texting, and stuff like that. It's great.

But sometimes people take the technology thing too far. Case in point: I met T a couple of weeks ago @ Day After in Hollywood. This was a random night where I nearly had a car accident with Lamar Odom on the way to the club (who kept giving ME the evil eye when we were walking in the club with his non-driving ass) and got stuck in the middle of the dance floor in the midst of a whole bunch of Asian girls "Walking It Out" at the club. It was really strange. All I could think is, "They must watch a lot of BET." Really random night. Anyway, that night I met T, a promoter for a few Hollywood clubs. He seemed cool, and I wanted to get on his guestlist so I gave him my number. We talked about getting together and having lunch or something.

This was two weeks ago, and I haven't spoken to T yet. However, we have been communicating via text. We have been communicating SOLELY via text. And I don't mean texts that are short and simple, this negro initiates full-on conversations via text. We haven't talked on the phone! He called me once a couple of days ago and I missed his call. I called him back, and he didn't answer. I called him on two separate occasions and I got no answer. But he keeps sending me texts. All freakin' day.

All of our conversations have been via text. It makes me wonder, "Why won't he just call?" I mean seriously. Sprint only allots 500 texts a month in my service plan. I don't want to use them all up on T. I got other people I text too. I don't get why he won't call. Does he not like to talk on the phone? Is he socially inept? Does he think it makes him look cool because he's texting all the time? Whatever it is, its fucking weird. And he's trying to make dates and shit with me (via text of course). I can't honestly say I feel comfortable going out with someone who I haven't had a verbal conversation with since I met him.

Gotta go now, T is texting me...

Random Sunday Night Thoughts

I started going back to the gym. Yes, I finally got my lazy ass up and started working out again! I've been on it 3 times a week for the past few weeks and I'm already starting to see slight results. I haven't lost any weight, but my clothes fit better and I look a little more toned. I feel really good too. My energy level has increased and I sleep better. I feel like I'm being proactive about reaching my goal of being healthier and more in shape. I don't want to lose too much weight because I want to keep my curves. I love my T & A. I want to lose no more than 10 pounds.

One of my biggest pet peeves is when people are closed-minded about things. I don't understand how someone can think that their way of thinking or doing things is the divine way. My mother used to always tell me when I was growing up, "If everyone on this earth looked the same and thought the same way, the world would be a boring place."

I really need to sleep more. I get about 5 hours of sleep every night. The recommended amount is 7-8 hours, but I feel like that's too much for me. If I sleep that much I wake up feeling sluggish. I should probably try to get somewhere around 6.5 hours. I usually wake up feeling sluggish no matter how much I sleep, because I'm just not a morning person. I'm not fully awake until about 10 am. But given the choice I'd rather sleep less, then wake up and dope up on caffeine.

Although I'm a scrooge and I hate the holidays, the one thing I do love about the holidays is seeing my family. Throughout the year life sometimes gets in the way, but during Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Years' everyone puts forth the extra effort to see one another. And I'm blessed to have most of my family in the same vicinity, so it makes it easier for everyone to see each other.

Peace...

Christmas? Eh.

I haven't done any Christmas shopping whatsoever, and there are only two weeks left until the holiday. I'm just not really into the holiday. I haven't been into it since I was a child. Christmas is really a holiday for children anyway, and since I don't have any (and I don't plan on it anytime soon) I don't see a reason for all the fuss.

The holiday has seemed to move far away from its purpose. The whole point is to celebrate the birth of Christ. But outside the church, little to no attention is paid to that fact. It's become more about presents, Santa, and pine trees. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy giving and receiving gifts, but its quite disheartening that the focus has shifted away from the real purpose of the holiday. I don't mean to come off as a super Christian, because I hardly even go to church. However, I was raised in church. I have that foundation. I may not attend services but I'm a spiritual person who knows where her blessings come from.

I'm not feeling the whole Christmas hoopla. For me the best part of the holiday is spending time with my family. And eating. Anytime of the year is a good time to celebrate Christ, not just December 25th.

I'll start my shopping next week. But I'm not going into debt to buy gifts for everyone. My list is fairly short anyway, so that saves me a lot. The people I love would rather have the gift of time spent over material items anyway.

Shake Em' Off

I thrive when my life is fast paced and busy. When things are slow, I feel weird then I get lazy. I'd take an overpacked schedule with moments of peace over a slow paced lifestyle anyday.

Since I have a lot going on in my life between work, classes, family, friends, having a social life and squeezing in time for self, I have to do an inventory every once in awhile and drop the dead weight in my life. As I evolve as a person I have to eliminate things that are no longer working for me. I have to streamline things in order to keep my life running smoothly.

I had to discontinue a situation with someone who had recently come back into my life after a few years. We used to see one another maybe four or five years ago, and we sort of fell off. We picked back up in the late summer of this year. Initially things were okay, but as time passed I began to see that this person was not the same person I knew back in the day. He seemed to have changed for the worse, and I didn't necessarily like the person that he had become. It could be that I changed too. I tried to stick out because we had a history already, but I couldn't have someone around me who wasn't treating me with respect and who didn't make the effort to make sure that we maintained a connection. It could be that this person was always an asshole and I just turned a blind eye to it. I don't know. But I'm glad that I opened my eyes to see him for who he really is before I invested too much of myself into the situation. I can't have people around me who detract from my life.

I'm usually apprehensive about confronting people and breaking things off. I don't really like confrontation, because it can breed conflict, and I don't like conflict. But sometimes confrontation is a necessary evil. In this situation I had to take the liberty of confronting this person and telling him that our situation wasn't working for me and that I needed to move on with my life. He didn't take it well, but I think he understands where I am coming from. Sucks that things didn't work out, but it just wasn't in God's plan for us.

Oddly enough, for someone who doesn't like confrontation, I felt liberated after I did it. In a way I felt like I conquered a fear of mine as well as removing something negative from my life.