Bitchin' bout the holidays

Scrooge.

I'm canceling the holidays this year. I'm not really feeling up to it, so I'm sitting this one out. I sound like a scrooge, but I'm just not into it. I don't have one of those close knit families that has holiday get togethers. When I was a kid we used to do stuff like that but since my sister and I are grown I guess there isn't an incentive anymore. For the past several years I've ended up at a friend's house on the holidays. Way to mooch off other people's family gatherings.

My mom is a nurse, so she'll prolly be working on Thanksgiving and Christmas. I won't be kicking it with Pops, we just aren't close like that. We talk every couple of weeks or so. I'll call to wish him a good one, but that's about it. My aunt is coming to town from AZ for Thanksgiving, but I don't like her so I'm none too excited about spending the holidays with her. You know how everyone has that mean auntie? That's her. Plus she's a horrible houseguest, so I'm not anxiously awaiting her arrival.

My Christmas list is very short, its about 3 people long, including myself and whoever I get stuck with for Secret Santa at work.

I guess my apathy for the holidays has to do with the fact that I don't have many good memories associated with them. It seems like bad stuff always happens around this time of year. One year my cousin died at the age of 21 on Christmas day. Another year I broke up with a serious boyfriend on Christmas. This year my sister's aunt is in a coma due to an aneurysm and her chances of surviving are slim.

Maybe if I had a child I would have a reason to be excited for the holidays. It's really for the kids. Until then, I'm going to use this time to take advantage of the holiday sales to shop for myself and get drunk at holiday parties. Self-centered? Probably so. But I don't give a shit.

Happy holidays!

Peace.